Slept with a married man...now am ducked.

I knew I wanted you in me the first time I saw you. Not sure what it was that drew me closer to you.

Maybe the height or the fact… that you woke up and hugged me a bit tight…Or maybe the fact that I intentionally didn’t put on my spectacles so that you’d see me first and I’d get disappointed last.

The minute you said hello and pulled up the chair for me

Made my body yarn for you. I knew I wanted you but didn’t know why. The fact that I was a bit distracted didn’t bother you. You came prepared so just sat next to me and not across.  I could tell that you were looking at me and trying to make the moments last a little longer than they should have.

 

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I said 5 minutes and I’d know.

Whether I liked you or not. But boy my blood was boiling and all I wanted was for…. 

You to go. (you know what I mean).💋

But you wanted us to watch a movie… I always do that alone or with the kids. That’s one of my safe heavens and you wanted to fuck it up. But something was a miss… a bit off. But I couldn’t stick to my NO… so you tagged along.

Am

Worried that reality will kick in… cause for now it’s just a fairytale I love. Knowing that you’ve had you’re every first with her… and you denying me mine. Makes me get upset cause I know am wrong. 

Sleeping with one that’s not and will not be mine.  Means, I need to let go and not turn back. I need to stop this yarning for you… cause I’ve had you but why isn’t that enough? 

Maybe it’s the fact that I know

That I’ll have to leave you and go back to being on my own.

And you'll have to go back to them...your own.

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